sink under.
There could be fog
Or maybe just a mist
And inexplicably I'll fade to white
Vanish, and be gone
Or it could be night
And I'll be darkly dressed,
Evading easy definition
And as your eye's distracted
By a falling leaf
I'll merge with restless shadows
And be gone
Then you will discover
What emptiness is
A space so hollow
Even its own walls are swallowed up
A quality of missing
So intense
A lack, a lack
Each hour more bottomless than the last
Until your heart cries out,
A howl of forfeiture
But it will be nothing
Ashen silence where I used to sing
And deafness
The howl must strike the right resonant frequency
A wail that echoes all to the ends of time
To fill the gaping void in whole, looping wavelengths
From the well of your soul, such loneliness
To make Siberian wolves hang heads for shame
In their convivial packs
Then, only then
Might you detect my footprints, indistinct
Marking the morning dew fall
Perhaps glimpse a puff of breath
in the cold, dawn air
You must utter
A howl so desolate, it
Jerks you from your sleep
To find me warm beside you on your pillow
And you will know how
Close you were to the brink
Of the abyss
And know what missing is
And hold me.
Â
the livin one.
JEWW.
taurus.
ball thru the hoop is my game
OUTDOORS and clubs.
APPLOGIST
EMOTIONS.
talking, laughing, loving, breathing,
fighting, fcuking, crying, drinking,
writing, winning, losing, cheating,
kissing, thinking, dreaming.
LIST
suspenders
overolls
convrse bball shoes
timberland baggg
braunbuffel wallet
adidas sbs
adidas jacket
ipod video
MACbook pro
limegreen G-shock watch
adidas cap
DUN HAVE MY SIZE! ):
havanas sandles
E.A / adidas shades
black blazer with white strips
clothes pls :)
Monday, October 23, 2006
. stared 3:46 AM
Sunday, October 22, 2006
and it finally rained..
but i see no rainbow..
. stared 6:36 AM
Thursday, October 19, 2006
lies, white lies black lies whatever lies.
its all ends up as ONE BIG LIE.
the crazy thing is, you actually start believing in it.
now.. where is my Dummies For
Act-like A Happy Family..
. stared 4:11 AM
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
SCREWED THE DAMN THING.
had a row with my dad.
im officailly and permanently G R O U N D E D.
so its only home and school and home and school.
dont ask me out.
to the one in camp.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LA.
STAY CHEERFUL N POSITIVE KAE.
(:
jo. im sorry.
i might not be able to stay till late tml le..
so super sorry..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY STILL!
WONDER WHY WE DUN EVER ASK WHERE ARE YOU?
COZ WE KNOW.
UR ROUTINE LIFE STYLE AND WE DUN BOTHER ASKIN.
DUN U GET IT.
WE DUN TALK ITS BECAUSE YOU NV SEEM FRIENDLY
AND THE FACT YOU ALWAYS RANT AND SCOLD THE WHOLE HOUSEWHOLE UPSIDE DOWN THE MOMENT YOU REACH HOME.
THINK ABOUT IT.
WOULD YOU WANNA TALK TO SOMEONE LIKE DAT OR EVEN HOLD A NORMAL CONVERSATION.
IF IM SANE ENOUGH I WOULDNT.
SEE THE LINK.
SCREW.
IF YOU WAN MT FREESOM SO BE IT.
. stared 8:33 AM
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
why do i feel the immerse pressure and stress..
i just feel like braking down..
but the tears wun flow..
--
i cant get to sleep..
my bio clock's so twisted ah..
i bet ill be late for lect tml again..
so i better chk out where's my lect hall now..
sighs..
i wanna sleep
i wanna sleep
I WANNA SLEEP..!
>.<
time and time again i think of you..
why is it i cant get you outta my head..
i dun wan to care anymore..
but it seems like its not workin..
perhaps i should keep myself occupied..
then maybe you will appear less..
. stared 1:04 PM
There's a pain that sleeps inside
It sleeps with just one eye
And awakens the moment that you're near
Though I try to look away
The pain it still remains
Only leaving when you're next to me
Do you know, that everytime you're near
Everybody else seems far away
So can you come and make them disappear
Make them disappear and we can stay
So I stand and look around
Distracted by the sounds
Of everyone and everything I see
And I search through every face
Without a single trace, of the person
The person that I need
Do you know, that everytime you're near
Everybody else seems far away
So can you come and make them disappear
Make them disappear and we can stay
Can you make them disappear?
Make them disappear
There's a pain that sleeps inside
Sleeps with just one eye
And awakens, the moment that you're near
And I search through every face
Without a single trace, of the person
The person that I need
Do you know, that everytime you're near
Everybody else seems far away
So can you come and make them disappear
Make them disappear and we can stay
**
make me disappear instead ba..
. stared 9:09 AM
bdaes dat r comin..
camps dat r comin..
projs dat r in the midst of comin..
i feel the strain n stress..
GOSH.
and i hafta admit.. my mm mgt sux to the core..
. stared 6:30 AM
Sunday, October 15, 2006
YEAH!
sku's startin tml..
im excited.. it means i get to studyyyyyyy.. woohoo.
cant wait.. n i hafta get back to doin proj as well.. >.<
monday 9am-5pm (odd wks) 9am-3pm(even wks)
tuesday 8am-12pm (YEAH!)
wednesday 9am-4pm
thursday 9am-3pm
friday 9am-6pm
i was goin to say i think im gonna love tues n thurs the most.. den i think again.. i dun think so anymore.. lol. coz i have cca.. so it means i cant go out n play even when i end early.. =\ but its okie.. trg's gonna be fun as well! lol. xD with my libra and the team =]
but tml i start at 1pm! n suppose to end at 3pm.. but i tnk ill end earlier~ and i have napfa this sem.. die. my 2.4 so cannot make it alr.. >.<
anwwwwww.. i cant wait to get my hands on my text la.. den i can start muggin..
and this enthu-ness of me muggin will prob last only for about one month max..?
hahhaa..
xD
. stared 9:44 AM
Friday, October 13, 2006
Fact:
It is estimated that at any one time, 0.7% of the world's population is drunk. saw a baby lizard flippin itself down the stairs just now..
it was literally flippin itself down the stairs.. not crawlin not scatterin.. just pure flippin.. one step down by one step.. weird.
just came back from watchin deathnote..
for those who read the manga.. the ending's a cliff hanger..
i felt pretty cheated.. but nonetheless the movie portray most of wat was in the manga except there'll be a part 2 or 3 or 4..?
watchin the screenplay is just like readin the manga just that the characters move and some parts are erased.. the plot is still as excited.. but dry..
japanese manga writers are brilliant!
ill still read the manga.. (:
day by day..
time passes by..
looking into the mirror..
the person staring back at me..
i no longer recognize..
. stared 1:33 PM
karma - what goes around comes aroundso much for my stupidity, slow decision making and idiotcy..
. stared 6:52 AM
who ever said friday night's the most happening and exciting day of the week..?
it definately does not work for me..
im so bored outta my mind!!!
ive absolutely nothing to dooooo..
gosh.
i cant even think of who to ask to go out..
this is pathetic.
cant wait for school to reopen so i can just study..
hello.
someone.. ask me out.. soon..?
o.0
. stared 5:00 AM